This week has not been going well at all. Not only have I been in severe pain but I have gotten bad news from all the places that I was hoping was going to help me and my family. I am on state aid to help with food costs and on state aid medical as well due to I don't have a job. I will say I basically quit my job due to unable to take time off when needed to help with my chronic pain issue. I have not had a day without pain in four years. Its gotten to the point now I can't go a day without having pain and laying down to help it. I don't like to take pills in fact I get the pills and try not to take them as funny as it sounds its true. I feel that if I start taking them every day I will end up dependent on them or addicted to them then that will become another issue.
I have been told NO all week this week.
All my troubles started on Tuesday February 12, 2013. I got a email notice that there had been a change in my case with Department of Human Services for Calhoun Michigan. The change was they are going to close my case due to failure to give notice of my termination of employment. What they want is a letter from my job saying they let me go. Well that would be fine if I had one. I don't think they understand on how an online job works. There is no paper and no letters given only emails. They tell me it can't be an email it needs to be an letter. Really??? What if I can't get one then what??? They say well then your case will be closed for sure... They tell me "You can type one up your self and we will look it over but still maybe declined due to not from your job". They tell me I am not self employed because I got paid from only one company so therefor I was an employee not self employed.. What??? I say "Then why do you want to see my income tax information which shows my self employment income and taxed income from my self employment?" I get a 1099 not a W-2 and I don't get pay check stubs I send them an invoices for the company to pay me. I ask why do you want this information if you don't follow it??? Its a government system to help the people in-need and you don't follow the same information as the IRS but yet you want to see this information why then if you don't follow it??? I mean really it make no sense to me. Our government is so flawed with issues its not even funny. If the IRS see me as self employed and long with my Stated income tax office, then why can't a state government agency also see me as self employed?? It can not be answered because they know its not right and they don't care. I am just one less they have to worry about. Well I am planning to make sure every one who is self employed under the poverty level can still get help and not make it so stressful to get the help they need. My family is at risk of being without food and support for medical and its all because of paper work I can't get and have no way of getting.
The next day I get a letter in the mail from Social Security and they declined my claim for help as well. They say I can still work. Really??? I can't go a day without wishing to just lay down and die and yet I can work. They have no clue how much pain I am in and at the same the time again they don't care.
I am sick to death of trying all the time to getting no where in life. I am up for surgery in one months time and I won't be able to have it due to my case will be closed with DHS due to lack of paper work turned in on time that I don't have. So bye bye chances of a better life, the pain and I will be friends for life.
My depression has gotten so bad I don't even want to leave my house in fear of more bad news. I hate me so much any more I feel like its a battle to even look at my self in the mirror I am so ashamed of me. I have gained weight due to lack of movement due to I am in pain all the time. I am sick to death of this life. I have two children and if it weren't for them I may have killed myself by now. I love my children and would do any thing for them. I love my boyfriend too but he too has hard time in believing I am in pain and listening to me about it.
I care for them and mask the pain I have. People are sick to death of hearing my issues. My family pushes me away sometimes due to they don't want to hear my cries over things they can't help any further. They can't help my pain, they can't help me with a letter of termination and they can't help me fight Social Security. So why tell them things any more??? I only have myself to talk too and I am sick to death of me so now what?? Hell I am typing this and no one reads this shit... I am the only one who looks at this blog. So I guess this will be last time I write on this too cause its not helping me out any more. Its just sad to see only me on here. Really I only have me who cares any more about this... Kids we are on our own to make it.
I have been told NO all week this week.
All my troubles started on Tuesday February 12, 2013. I got a email notice that there had been a change in my case with Department of Human Services for Calhoun Michigan. The change was they are going to close my case due to failure to give notice of my termination of employment. What they want is a letter from my job saying they let me go. Well that would be fine if I had one. I don't think they understand on how an online job works. There is no paper and no letters given only emails. They tell me it can't be an email it needs to be an letter. Really??? What if I can't get one then what??? They say well then your case will be closed for sure... They tell me "You can type one up your self and we will look it over but still maybe declined due to not from your job". They tell me I am not self employed because I got paid from only one company so therefor I was an employee not self employed.. What??? I say "Then why do you want to see my income tax information which shows my self employment income and taxed income from my self employment?" I get a 1099 not a W-2 and I don't get pay check stubs I send them an invoices for the company to pay me. I ask why do you want this information if you don't follow it??? Its a government system to help the people in-need and you don't follow the same information as the IRS but yet you want to see this information why then if you don't follow it??? I mean really it make no sense to me. Our government is so flawed with issues its not even funny. If the IRS see me as self employed and long with my Stated income tax office, then why can't a state government agency also see me as self employed?? It can not be answered because they know its not right and they don't care. I am just one less they have to worry about. Well I am planning to make sure every one who is self employed under the poverty level can still get help and not make it so stressful to get the help they need. My family is at risk of being without food and support for medical and its all because of paper work I can't get and have no way of getting.
The next day I get a letter in the mail from Social Security and they declined my claim for help as well. They say I can still work. Really??? I can't go a day without wishing to just lay down and die and yet I can work. They have no clue how much pain I am in and at the same the time again they don't care.
I am sick to death of trying all the time to getting no where in life. I am up for surgery in one months time and I won't be able to have it due to my case will be closed with DHS due to lack of paper work turned in on time that I don't have. So bye bye chances of a better life, the pain and I will be friends for life.
My depression has gotten so bad I don't even want to leave my house in fear of more bad news. I hate me so much any more I feel like its a battle to even look at my self in the mirror I am so ashamed of me. I have gained weight due to lack of movement due to I am in pain all the time. I am sick to death of this life. I have two children and if it weren't for them I may have killed myself by now. I love my children and would do any thing for them. I love my boyfriend too but he too has hard time in believing I am in pain and listening to me about it.
I care for them and mask the pain I have. People are sick to death of hearing my issues. My family pushes me away sometimes due to they don't want to hear my cries over things they can't help any further. They can't help my pain, they can't help me with a letter of termination and they can't help me fight Social Security. So why tell them things any more??? I only have myself to talk too and I am sick to death of me so now what?? Hell I am typing this and no one reads this shit... I am the only one who looks at this blog. So I guess this will be last time I write on this too cause its not helping me out any more. Its just sad to see only me on here. Really I only have me who cares any more about this... Kids we are on our own to make it.
